Tuesday, June 24, 2008

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Ummm...
I just got done watching an amazing movie!
Jumper. It was phenomenal! Anyways I definitely suggest it...

I also got on Halo after the movie hoping to play with Mark, TImmAH, and Nathan but we can't play together for some reason... Our connections conflict or something. Since I couldn't play with them I played a couple Team Swat games by myself until the lag got REAL annoying. But the first game I played I did REALLY good. It was normal Team Swat on Swat Guardian. I ended up with 20 kills, 10 deaths, and 2 killing sprees... Not too shabby I thought.

So lately I just been feeling really Neutral. I don't like that feeling at all. I want to feel God. I've been doing pretty good on focusing just on a single day. Just taking it day-by-day works! Anyway I've been feeling poetic lately for some reason so the scripture is from Psalm tonight:

Psalm 143:1-4 (New American Standard)
1 "Hear my prayer, O Lord,
Give ear to my supplications!
Answer me in Your faithfulness, in
Your righteousness!
2 And do not enter into judgment with
Your servant,
For in Your sight no man living is
righteous.
3 For the enemy has persecuted my
soul;
He has crushed my life to the
ground;
He has made me dwell in dark
places, like those who have
long been dead.
4 Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed
within me;
My heart is appalled within me."


I thought this verse did a good job of describing how I've felt recently. Also I have a friend that would very much be able to identify with this passage. David wrote this. King David. He wrote this after his heart was broken; after he committed murder and adultery. The great King David.
David is pleading with God here. Often how I find my heart pleading for forgiveness from God. He delivers. Always. He is faithful to those who are faithful to Him. Often after I screw up there's the moment of happiness. There always is. The two milliseconds of happiness. Then the shame and guilt come flooding in. I think this is what David is describing in verse four where he talks about his spirit being overwhelmed and his heart being appalled.

Finally I would like to finish this blog with a [very] small prayer. It's actually Psalm 143:9--
Father:
"Deliver me, O Lord, from my enemies; I take refuge in You."

1 comment:

Ian@UK said...

I love the Psalms. Such beautiful words.