utterly stupid

It's 2am on sunday. i forgot to post earlier the scripture so i'm posting now b/c i just got home...

i went to my g/f's house to watch a movie...we ate at BDub's...it was good!
then i went to a friend's house to play halo...
Only we didn't play halo. We messed around for the longest time and then prank phone called people...
bad idea.
i'm done with pranks officially.
we pranked one of my xbox live friends and when i got home i had three messages from him tell me how disappointed he was in me that i call myself "christian but then i screw around with him and his whole family at 2am."
i felt terrible. i messaged him back telling him how stupid it was and how sorry i am...

this sucks. i try so hard. and then i pull some stupid crap like that...

Psalm 34:18
"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."

I'm glad I thought to look in that grad book. I flipped to the 'Grief' section and found this Psalm verse. I thought it was pretty fitting for the situation. I feel like crap.
However, this verse gives comfort. I need to understand the my Father is with me. He has my back. I don't need to grieve for my stupidity. This verse offers forgiveness and salvation.
I'm eternally grateful for God's sacrifice of His own Son. Honestly I just need to start letting go more of my life. I need to fully give Him control. I want whatever is in His will. Not mine.
Well I need rest for church tomorrow.

God Bless